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Its Monday.  I’ve taken on a couple of new projects to manage, so I don’t die of boredom or apathy.  I really want to care about what I do, but I seem to not have a reason or motivation to care here.  I care about some of the people, but so few really care about me, the work, the team or the company.  WOW, that sounds depressing doesn’t it?  

I get up every morning, collect a paycheck, try to do a good job and look for my next opportunity.  What seems to keep me going is the dream of the next great thing.  I really want to lead a team, work with nice people, be respected for what I do and know-and treat those around me in kind. I know it will happen, but when?!  I’m gonna keep trying!!! 

Everyone always says “well, at least you have a job.”  That’s exactly what I say to myself while I’m driving 40 minutes each way to and from work.  I come to work, try to make it a little better for myself and for others that I work with-either through mentoring or creating new innovations/discussions on how to improve this place we call work.  I am now working hard to find my next great job-one where I can deliver all the skills that I know I’m capable of delivering. In the meantime, I will remain positive, lead where I can, and continue to say “At least I have a job.”

Its so hard to be productive at work when the weather is dreary, the team is falling apart, leaving and going to other projects.  I have to force myself to be productive.  I much preferred leading a team that enjoyed working together and was very dynamic and productive to my sitting here as a single contributor…